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Age: 39
Gender: female

I tried Meth once when I was 23 - @ a party, assumed it was cocaine - no big deal right? I'll be "coming down" that night. As soon as I snorted it I knew it wasn't cocaine. I didn't come down for practically a year. Why? Because I wanted more. I had SO much fun on this new drug. Lost weight, stayed out all night then found a dealer's house to "hang" at all day until we went back out at night. Did it & did it & did it - until my hair thinned, my voice was gone (& I sang for a popular local band), I couldn't eat, didn't sleep for 6 or 7 days at a time, hallucinated, alienated myself from family & friends who didn't do it, couldn't even hold a conversation with someone other than another "geeker". One year later it hit me - I HAD to stop. By the grace of God & a loving family - I stopped. Cold turkey. I was one of the lucky ones. Shortly after found out I was pregnant with twins - even more incentive to stay "clean". I never looked back, but the sad part was my best friend. She didn't stop. She didn't stop for 9 years. She became one of the top dealers in the North Metro Atlanta area - it's who she was, and what she did. Her new "friend" did the same, and someone found her dead in a ditch because she pissed off the higher ups that she was getting her stash from. My best friend did made it out alive - missing some teeth & some self-respect. She's been clean awhile now, has met the man of her dreams & plans to marry him in July. She replaced her lost teeth, & tries everything in her power to reverse the things that meth has done to her. She lost 9 years with her daughter who was 4 at the time when we started using. Her daughter is 20 now & just had a baby boy. So my friend's been making up lost time with her daughter and the new grandbaby. Meth kills. I felt like I had God on one side of me when I was trying to get sober and Satan on the other - both pulling me with all their strength. I made it through, and so did she. But I know there are SO many that aren't as lucky as we were. Thank you for the Ga Meth project. I can't stand to see another life ruined because someone didn't recognize how potent Meth is, or someone is thinking "just this once".

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