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Age: 32
Gender: female

I am a 32 year old mother of 4 children. I started using meth 10 years ago. I was never subjected to drugs or alcohol growing up and have 2 wonderful parents who have always stood by me and my children. When I started using I thought I would never get addicted, that I would stop whenever I wanted to."It was just for fun" so I thought.... Quickly I learned the fun only lasted a few hours.Within a few months I had lost the best job I ever had, isolated from my family, ignored my children,lost my home, my kids father went to jail,etc... I was alone with nothing... My parents took me in and I dried up for a short period of time till I tried it 1 more time, that was a joke.. It led to a couple more years using and just strted the cycle all over again.. I guess in the past ten years I have quit using and started back maybe 5 times with the longest clean time being 2 years. The last time I decided to pick it up I went on a 2 1/2 year binge, I done all the things I swore I would never do; shooting up and using while I was pregnant!This time I lost EVERYTHING including ALL 4 of my KIDS. I was homeless, car-less, and had to make an appointment with DFCS to see my children! I hit ROCK BOTTOM and finally got some real help instead of doing it by my self. I realized I was an addict and would have to fight this disease for the rest of my LIFE! I have been clean and sober for 6 months now. I attend NA meetings, Group therapy and individual counseling. This is something I will do FOREVER, but I'm ok with that because it beats getting high and losing everything in my life, my dignity, faith, self-respect, pretty much all of my values and morals..

If I hadn't touched METH the 1st time I wouldn't have ever become ADDICTED! I would have all my kids, and wouldn't be facing a lifelong battle against the disease of addiction!

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